I decided that I would stay up extra late and put in some time learning UNIX. I have wandered into totally unfamiliar territory, and I keep hoping that the ground will resurface underneath me. My favorite hippie did not teach lessons on UNIX, and if he had I probably would have confused it with a band name. On the surface UNIX is not horribly complicated. However, I kept feeling like I was going to accidentally delete something and the world was going to implode. I felt like I was sneaking in someone’s back window or tp-ing the neighbor’s yard. I wondered if I was going to get caught and the FBI was going to bang in my door like an episode of cops.
The strangest part of all of these scenarios is that although they played out intensely in my mind, none of them happened.I am inclined to believe that my paranoid delusions are the result of no sleep, a sinus infection, and two sick children. The truth is that I am just a lunatic and mostly technologically illiterate. Everything I was doing was completely legal, and I was only experimenting with my own files. I think what was making me so nervous was the knowledge of how long it took me to create the html document and how I would feel if I accidentally deleted it.
Overall, I still get nervous experimenting with certain aspects of technology. I want to stay in my safe little bubble where it is warm and filled with liquid stupidity. On a scholastic level I know that technology is a fabulous thing, I would be lost without the technology that I use everyday. I need Google, Netflix, Facebook, and my cell phone. However, new-to-me technology scares me. I am still waiting for my light bulb to shine, but I must have pulled a 25 watt bulb instead of a 60. I know it will get easier with time, but I am naturally resistant to change. Hopefully, the next assignment will be more palatable since I get to work with a group!